My doctor's appointment went great on Tuesday, they heard the heartbeat!! It was 180 beats per minute. Perfect. The due date I was using (June 3rd) is not the one they are using. According to the baby's measurements, that was the due date. But they are going off my LMP and according to that, the baby is due May 28th. So I am farther along than I thought, I am 10 weeks today. The baby is the size of a small plum. On November 18th I go for my detailed ultrasound, they will measure the back of the baby's head to make sure it is normal size. I am expecting everything will be ok.

One of my mom's friend's gave us a gift for Landon that is really special, she donated a tree to be planted in Landon's memory. Today I met with the lady to discuss the details, Charlie and I had decided to plant the tree in Jackrabbit park, and before he left, we picked a spot. I am not sure what the name of the tree is, but it will be full and green :) We will be planting the tree in a couple weeks, and the plaque will be there shortly after. Families can help plant the tree, so I am hoping everyone can make it out there.

I went to visit Landon today, and brought him a pumpkin. I know things are not suppose to be on their graves until next week (because of the Winter grass), but its small, so I think its ok. Grandma Carla got the little pumpkin teddy for Landon.

News on Charlie... His school is going good, and he is super busy. They extended his 2nd school an extra month, so we are not too excited about that. He wont be coming home for Thanksgiving, and as of right now we are not too sure if he'll be able to come back for Christmas either. If he does not come home for Christmas I am going out there. We will probably know within a week whats going to happen.

Landon's Halloween teddy and pumpkin

(there is a face on there, but you can't really see it)

Hello! As far as I can tell the baby is still ok. I am still nauseous, and thats good... I read that a sign of a miscarriage is when your symptoms go away. So everyday I am nauseous, I am happy! The little baby is now the size of a large raspberry. I go to the doctor for a check up on Tuesday.

Last week was Callie's birthday, I got her a Wedding Guide Checklist, and my parents got her a Happy Birthday daughter-in-law card (and signed it mom and dad). These were jokes, but I hope they got the hint :) We have been teasing them about this for awhile, and even Callie's sister told her that her kids need cousins...

I went to visit Landon over the weekend and brought him flowers. I wanted to get white ones, but I went to 3 places and none of the white ones were pretty enough. So I decided on some yellow ones with red tips (the meaning of the color didn't really fit, but they looked so pretty). I bought a dozen, but only left some of them, then yesterday I went and brought some more from that dozen. When I was leaving the cemetery, I saw a little bunny run across the grass, I thought that was so sweet!

Landon's grave

The 3 roses in the middle are from Mommy, Daddy, and his brother or sister.

The rose on top is from Grandma Carla.

I made these for Halloween, I saw it on Martha Stewart
Callie and her Wedding Checklist book, and her card from "Mom and Dad"
Gifts for the raspberry from Grandma Carla...
A teddy bear and a onsie from Charlie's and my high school (we were Huskies)

Gifts from Mommy and Daddy.

I bought the onsie as a surprise for Charlie, it says "Perfect just like my dad".

And the snuggly teddy was something we bought together.

I went for my ultrasound today, and as of right now the baby is doing good! The heart rate was 150 beats per minute, and it was growing. The baby is measuring at 7 weeks and 1 day. The due date is June 3rd, and I think thats where it will stay. The baby is about 1 cm big. Now, there is still blood around the baby and it is measuring less than last week. So thats good, but of course it is still a concern. The ultrasound tech showed me the ultrasound from last week and the ultrasound from this week so I could see the difference in how much blood there was. To me it looked almost the same, but I was surprised at how big the "blood area" was. I should get a call in a couple days once the doctor looks at the ultrasounds. But most likely I will not be going in for another ultrasound until I am 12 weeks. I know this little baby has a guardian angel...

~Our little peanut~

On Monday my friend Angela came to visit with her daughter Neveah. I have not seen Angela since middle school or maybe high school. We only got in contact again through Myspace! It was crazy seeing her after so long, but it seems like nothing has changed :) We went and got lunch and after that just hung out and talked all day.

Tomorrow I have my ultrasound, its at 10:00 am. I feel like this baby is going to be ok, maybe its just wishful thinking, or maybe it really will be a healthy baby. I guess I will find out tomorrow... good or bad...

Angela. Neveah, and me

Today I went and had lunch with the girls from the doctor's office where I used to work. It was a lot of fun seeing them and catching up. I have not seen them since I left there, and that was about 2 years ago! They bought flowers for Landon, but since I could not leave anything on his grave (because they are putting in the winter grass) I just left 3 flowers on his grave, 1 of each color. I love being so close to Landon and being able to visit him whenever I want. It was hard in Japan since we were so far away, its nice being back. Having lunch and visiting Landon was the only thing I did today, I have been pretty much laying in bed ever since. I know they said there is nothing I can do to prevent a miscarriage, but I just feel it would be safer for the baby if I am laying down and relaxing. So until my next ultrasound, thats what I plan on doing.

I went to the doctor today and got my ultrasound. I have good news and bad news, I'll start with the good... the baby is growing and has a heartbeat, it was 125 beats per minute. The baby is measuring just over 6 weeks, so June 2nd is still the due date. Now the bad news, there was blood around the baby. Because of that, its possible this pregnancy will end in a miscarriage. My doctor really could not tell me too much because most people do not have ultrasounds this early. The blood was there during my last ultrasound but I was never told anything. I go back next week for another ultrasound to see how much blood is there, if there is less thats a good thing, and if there is more... well then I'll probably miscarry. So right now we are just praying that everything goes ok and this baby is healthy. The fact that the baby has grown since last time, and the heart is now beating gives me hope that he or she will be ok.

Charlie Update: The roster for his school was put up today and he was not on it!! He went and talked to the people in charge and was told there was something wrong with his clearance. But, when he went and checked the lady said she was looking right at it and everything was ok. So he was told to show up at class on Tuesday. If he is in the class that starts Tuesday he will graduate on December 19th. But then he still has the second class, and for the job he wants, the training will be an extra 2 months. He has moved rooms, by choice, and is now next to someone he has recently met. He chose to be neighbors with him because he trusts him, and since they share a common area (bathroom and kitchen) its better to be sharing it with someone you like.

Our little baby

6 weeks & 2 days

Even though this looks similar to the one from last week,

the circle in this picture is the acutal baby... not the yolk sac.

I just got a call from my doctor's office, and my doctor was not happy with my ultrasound. I guess it was too early to see what she wanted to see. All we could see was the yolk sac, and she wanted to see the actual baby (the tadpole). So they booked me another appointment for Thursday at 2:00. I am a little nervous... I just want to hear the heartbeat, then I will be able to relax. I should be far enough along on Thursday to hear the heartbeat. I'm just hoping everything goes ok.

News on Charlie... He is settled in, but his school has not started yet. There are not enough people yet!! They are expecting it to start in a couple weeks. Until then, they are not doing too much. His group has to clean, but since Charlie is a fleet returnee, he and the other fleet returnees get to supervise. Other than that they work out in a group, and one day a week they have a class. The class is just about the Navy, not the job.

Hi everyone! We had to start a new website... I tried to change some things around on the old site and ended up messing a lot of things up. It looks ok when you go to the page, but when I try to edit information thats when it messes up. So with my hormones being on overload, I thought it would be better to just start a new page, rather than stress out over the whole thing. So here we are...

A lot has gone on this past week, we went out with 2 couples from high school. It was fun catching up with them, we keep in contact through the internet, but seeing them in person was nice. Nicole (one of the girls we went out with) made us a kleenex box, and it was a collage of Landon's photos. It was so sweet, and we love it. I wanted to take a picture of it, but Charlie has the camera. She also brought me some maternity clothes since she just had a baby. Its nice to have some since mine are all packed away!

We went for our first ultrasound, the baby was too little to measure so she measured the yolk sac instead. By that measurement I was 5 weeks and 3 days (that was Friday). So it would make me due June 2nd. But, she said usually the baby measures smaller than the yolk sac. At my 12 week ultrasound maybe we will have a better idea.

Yesterday my grandparents came over, and we went to see Landon. We released 12 balloons for him. It didn't take long for them to disappear into the sky, we figure Landon is bouncing them around up there :)

Charlie left for Virginia today, I am going to miss him but it will be nice to get his school over with. I can't wait until we finally get to our new duty station and are all settled down again. Only 6 months to go...

This is a picture I never posted...

Since Landon liked his pacifier the doctor said we could try a bottle.

He did ok, but could not suck hard enough to get enough. I just came across this photo so I thought I would share it...

Baby #2

Inside the black area there is something that looks like a ball, thats the yolk sac that will eventually turn into the placenta.

Landon's grave finally has grass!!!

Balloon release
Charlie and me

Everyone with their balloons
12 balloons on their way up to Landon